a weird feeling

We had our check up from our family doctor last Saturday. Everything was fine with some concerns. My husband and I need to have a blood test and hubby does not like it. I need to have a ultrasound for lower abdomen, breast and trans vaginal ultrasound. I was required to have it after I complained about pain in my left breast and left lower abdomen. Haven't scheduled it yet, need to look for a clinic in our area.

The weird thing is, yesterday my lower abdomen ached and is aching as well as the lower part of my left rib cage. Scary huh?

I'm back!

It's spring already and I'm really excited even though allergy season is here, too. It's been 10 months since the my last entry here. So many things and events had happened and maybe because I was too busy, too tired to write. Summer time is not the best weather for my work. It is hot and humid inside the plant due to the drying process. So if it is warm or hot outside can you imagine how hot it is inside? And now it's summer-like weather, expect it to be hotter inside my workplace :(.

Well, got to prepare and condition myself because this will be another day of walking, standing, climbing ladders and stairs and a clear mind. At least I sweat a lot and have a good exercise, too!

Happy Thursday!

10th

Today is our 10th year wedding anniversary. :)

My hubby and kids are greeting me the moment I woke up. A very nice feeling and hope a nice day ahead. We don't have really a great or fancy celebration, maybe this weekend we will just go somewhere and stroll.

Here's a picture of us...

To you my ever loving, understanding and sweet hubby, happy anniversary!

my day

It's been a while since my last post. So what happened in those weeks?
I celebrated my nth birthday. Thanks to Pearl for the post you made in your blog. I really appreciate it.

Before my birthday, I got sick. And this added to my tiredness and exhaustion that I was experiencing in those days. In spite of my sickness, we had a simple party here with some of our relatives. And of course, with cake with candles to blow with. But nobody had a lighter or match to light it. We just pretended that it has.

The best part: I made a blueberry cheesecake. I think It's better from what I did before in cheesecake. And did not last long. My eldest was complaining that she did not even had a piece.

my vacation part 1

Day 1- Very busy day, health card renewal, doctor's appointment and someone hit our car bumper while we are picking up our kids! I was shocked because it happened in the school's parking lot. One mommy didn't see our car while she is leaving the parking lot. She didn't bother to check if the way is clear. What a day! What if a kid is passing by and she didn't see it. What if she hit the part where my son is seated instead of the bumper.

Day 2- finished already, started already our tax return and gave me a headache. Whew! I already cleaned the blinds, washrooms, washed the bedsheets/ pillowcases, vacuumed the carpet in the bedrooms.

Day 3- Hmm, next for my early spring cleaning: living room, kitchen, maybe bake a cake, cook and if I have the energy and power maybe the basement, too. This is supposedly a vacation from work. But it's my other work being domesticated and being a mom.

a lazy Sunday

Staying at home the whole day makes me lazy. I know have so many chores to do- cleaning the washrooms, bedroom, finish folding clothes, clean the kitchen, do some sorting of unused things etc. etc. etc. but I feel lazy doing them all.

I stayed up late last night folding clothes while watching a movie. I just finish the first batch of clothes because I was so sleepy. And now I haven't started yet the next batch-still inside the dryer. My three kids are coughing all together like they are part of a group doing their solo performance of coughing. Hubby said he is not feeling well. And I am the only person here who is ok. I hope the next few days I'll be fine.

I just started cleaning the kitchen, and now it's dinner already. The pizza is cooked already. Kids will start to eat again. More mess and I'll clean again the counter, clear the dining table, never ending cleaning!

I haven't shower yet, as I have said this is a lazy Sunday.
No choice but I have to start moving!

Friday Photo Flashback

iT'S fRIDay PhoTo fLasHbacK again!
And I thank Alicia for this.


1983

Here's a photo way back in Grade 2 as remembered it. We are having our graduation recital for speech dynamics class. It is an English class where we were taught of grammar,correct pronunciation, speech and over coming stage fright.

And guess who was beside me? My hubby... :)

he did make an effort...

As I said yesterday, v-day is just another day for us.

But my hubby made a little effort-he gave me a rose chocolate. And didn't even notice when I got home last night. I thought it was a gift from work but actually it is really for ME.

At least. Thanks hubby!

My 2nd daughter can't wait to eat it. :)

reflection

I did some thinking these past few days. And here is what I'm thinking...

• I want to study again, maybe change profession- I love what I do but it's physically draining and I don't want to do that kind of work for the next 10 years
• In connection to the studying part, as an immigrant and internationally trained I have to study or what they called upgrade my skills in order to get a better job here in Canada. We are grateful we have jobs, but it's not enough. Time flies, better start setting goals.
• I want to have a job also that is a day shift or a 9-5 job. I tried night shift already and currently at afternoon shift, but I missed my kids. I want to spend quality time with them everyday-assisting them with their homework, reading a book with my son, playing monopoly with them and things that we used to do before. As I have said, my work is draining me physically, all I want to do on weekends is to rest and sleep. No quality time with the kids. And there's the household chores, too.
• Need to learn how to drive. Finish the book and take the written test and do driving lessons. This is a must!
• Be organized. Papers, receipts, letters, closets, laundry, kitchen, sort out unused old clothes, clean the basement, everything.
• Have one blog post a day at least. And my last entry again was last Wednesday! :)
• Have a "quality" time with hubby. These past few days I am not in the mood-stressed out?

This is not a reflection. This is a to-do list. And it's bulleted. Which comes first?

flashback...

Today as I was doing FB, an old friend of mine request to have a chat on FB. She's my co-member in an organization way back in college. She told me that they will soon migrate here in Canada. We chat about how it goes here, jobs, school, life in Canada.

And my mind suddenly goes back from the time when we are just new here, two years and 3 months ago.

We were so cold that time when we arrived here and its fall that time. We wore sweaters and bonnets, and upon seeing these pictures, we looked silly.

A good neighbor gave us an ice cream cake, it's so yummy!


Time really flies...

before the year ends...

Is this a good year for us?

Yes, we moved into our own house early this year.
Yes, got a brand new car.
Yes, my husband and I still have our jobs.
Yes, kids are growing, learning and eager to learn more.

What I don't like this year?
We got hit by chicken pox- all of us except hubby. And I was the worst.


But still very thankful, we have a great year.

How bout you, is this a good year for you?

the sun is smiling

It's peace and quiet here. And it's so white outside. It's snowing again since last night.

I am calm now and relaxed already. My husband woke me up yesterday morning and we had our early morning talk. We talked about the week that had passed, what happened last Saturday, our work, everything. And then son entered the room. He said good morning with kisses and hugs. Then entered 2nd daughter, lay down beside me and hugged me. I think it's their way of saying sorry. And I knew that their Dad talked to them.

I was waiting for Ate. But she didn't came to our room. His dad was calling her but still no reply. You see my eldest personality is similar to me. It's hard for me to say sorry. She does not like to show her emotions. And it's the same with me.

She did not talk to me, not a single word. And I'm just waiting. I want her to have the first move so she will realize that she is really sorry. They played in the basement and after a while, son handed me small paper.

It's a note from Ate.

It says, "Mom, I very sorry for what I've done. I tried the water slide in the community center. It's so fun." With a drawing of a kid sliding. I wasn't able to save the letter. :( Hubby cleaned yesterday and he threw it already in the garbage. He likes throwing things in the garbage. But that is a different story.

Back to my eldest. Then I went down to the basement and said sorry also. I gave her a hug and she kissed me. Both of us are smiling!


We went to Mass and prayed. I am happy now.

I was once a kid, too. And I think sometimes I think like a kid. It's just so hard to deal with kids especially if you don't agree with them. I know it's a learning process. You have to be patient with them, after all they are still young. Our love and guidance is all they need. And it's funny you can see your traits in your kids. It's like a mirror image.

And the best part? I had my new pair of boots already. Yey! Hubby brought me to the shoe store yesterday afternoon before going to work. I saw the boots that I really like. And it's on sale with a really good price.

After the rain, the sun is up again.

is it the weather?

I am not happy. I was so angry and frustrated this morning. I usually wake up on Saturdays late since there is no school, but this morning I was awaken again by yelling and shouting. And the worst is saying the word stupid back and forth. Kids again. Ate was mad because son accidentally dropped her DSi. So she yelled at him. Son was angry,too, and told his dad that ate is stupid.

Ate :"You can never use my Dsi ever!!! Why did you drop it?".

Son:"Solly (sorry), I didn't intend to."

Ate: "Don't ever touched my Dsi."

Son is crying out loud and the he said,"Ate is so stupid!"

Ate yelled back,"you're stupid!."

And Dad intervened and calmed Son. Ate and other 2nd daughter were inside their room. Silence finally.

Then hubby asked the girls to prepare themselves because they had an appointment to the doctor. But Ate and 2nd daughter were not listening because they're busy with Dsi. So I got up and told them to get ready. But still nobody move. I went back to our room and lay down again, calming myself. Every time I have something to tell them to do they don't listen. You have to say it a hundred times before they do it. And if they do it, you can witness rolling eyes, whining, complaining and stomping feet on the stairs. Not to mention banging of doors.

This week I have witnessed these every morning: crying and yelling I feel so frustrated. Are these my kids? What's happening?

Here we are so tired from working, and these scenarios will just add to your tiredness. All I'm asking is just a little consideration from you kids and just do your obligations to yourselves. I am not asking you to clean the house, prepare your food, just focus on yourselves. Be kind to your sister or brother. I just don't understand why do they have to do these things every time they're with their parents. Seeking attention?

Last night, 2nd daughter was crying in the middle of the night saying she can't sleep. When I arrived last night from work and checked them out she was fast asleep. But when she went to pee and saw a light downstairs, she started crying and said that she can't sleep. I was resting last night, having my peace time and there she goes crying. Crying in the morning and now it's crying again. And it's midnight. You gotta be kidding me or is this some kind of joke???

I hate crying but I cried this morning in front of my hubby. Can't take it anymore. Finally had a meltdown. It's my turn to cry and be angry. I went to the washroom and just sat there. Not crying anymore but thinking and telling myself "please, enough of this drama of yours. Stop it, I know it's really hard but it's just the way it is. You can handle this, they are just kids and they are your kids and you love them."

So I went out and went back to bed and lay down again. Hubby entered the room and said "don't worry I'll talk to them. They're just kids. We should be patient with them." And he kissed me on the cheek.

I know they're only kids but sometimes they pushed me to my limits. And I am angry because I have to work 3 weeks straight, so tired and sleepy, guilty because I seldom see them and if ever had the chance you have to see these scenario. Oh, how I wish I work day shift so I can see them at night before they go sleep. How I wish I am a stay home mom to take care of them and be with them. How I really wish!

And before hubby leaves the room,"If you want I can drive you to Winners tomorrow before you go to work."

As if going to a store will help me! Hmmm, maybe a little. :/


The result of being frustrated and angry: cooked fried chicken, my kids favourite!

multitasking

cooking, cleaning the kitchen, folding clothes, doing the laundry, and blogwalking at the same time!

whew!!!

now it's time to post one!

My MOnday Adventure

Tell me why I don't like Mondays as the song says...

I went out early yesterday to go to Service Canada. It will take 3 buses to go there. When I reached my 2nd stop, oh my there's the 3rd bus! And there I was, running as if I'm in a track and field race. And it's so dangerous bec. it'a busy street with all the trucks, cars and buses passing. I don't know how'd I manage to cross that street, and I Made it to bus number 3.

I got off walked straight to SC office. Waiting time- 40-60 minutes. I'll be stucked here I said to myself. Then, the receptionist called me, I told her what I need and just found out that my ROE (records of employment) is submitted already electronically. What the heck??? And I thought I should submit it personally!

I went staight to the washroom, checked my appearance(what do I look will all the running), did my business there and left SC office.

There I go again, destination: bus stop again. Waiting for the bus took me 15 mins. longer than staying in SC office. Luckily, the weather yesterday is nice. But my backpack is killing me. I don't know why, I did not bring any lunch. Maybe my water bottle?

I reached the nearest mall. I still have time to eat lunch and look around.Yey! This is the part that I'm looking forward to. I can look for my Xmas tree decor.

Got the decor, went straight again to bus #2 and off to work again...

gloomy friday

I don't like today. it's so gloomy actually foggy. Mr. Sun where are you?
Just want to sit down or lie down and sleep.

Hope Mr. Sun will show up and brighten my day.

No weekend off for me, will work until Friday next week. :(

finally...

I went out today to see the doctor. As i've written before I've been quarantined due to chicken pox. Finally, I was outside, had fresh air eventhough it's cold and windy and had sunshine on my skin.

My looks also improved esp. on the face but there still dried scabs on my body. The doctor said that I can work on Monday. Back to work, back to reality.

It's a great feeling going outside, I think my mood is better. It's like I'm alive again! Hahaha

Thank God for a great day. Have a nice day to all!

dots

i'm bored. i know i have so many things to do, but i don't have the drive to do it plus the weather, just want to sit and watch TV or surf the net.

i've been a "prisoner" for 13 days already, having been sick and quarantined, i'm really bored. i already did some chores but don't want to force myself to much. i want to go out but cannot. bec. of this s----d chicken pox, i am imprisoned here.

few more days and i can go out and breathe fresh air and have sunshine on my skin. will i look the same??? now i look like connect the dots. i hate it. plus the itchiness but i can't do it, afraid i'll have scars.

be patient... at least i don't have fever now.